Sincerity

"I'm sorry," he says.

When your boy says that, it sounds bitter to you, am I right? Well, sometimes, when boys speak, girls can detect insincerities. Girls are very sensitive. A slight touch can turn them on. That works the same way when boys lie to them, or even just ignore them for a while. They will get hurt, inside out.

I've heard so many sorry's before that I am actually sick of it. That's why I don't listen to sorry's, because I'm not good at forgetting. I can forgive, but never forget. When he wronged me, I cried. Yes, AH did something that I can never forget. That was the first time I ever cried because of a guy. He said sorry so many times but I ignored him. Well, not completely, though. Because eventually, I'd found my way back to him.

Nowadays, when guys confess their feelings to me, I'll feel really, really numb. Numb because I don't know what to say so they won't be hurt. Numb because I'll always compare them with AH. 

I just want to say that, if you're a boy, and you're reading this, please be nice to your girl. 

To ones who made their confessions, if you could sing and dance and pull cool expressions onto your face like Kim Hyun Joong, then buzz me. I'll be waiting. Lol.

This is for you, m'dear. You asked for this.

Depressed

I had a chat with Abang just now. 


Now, he's another person I'm jealous of despite the fact that he is my cousin. He's one lucky Eurasian, you know. He gets to go wherever he like. Money's always in his back pocket. And he's a genius too. A petroleum engineer in the making. 


He said he'll be in Malaysia during summer next year. "I'll be there 'til you don't want me anymore," he said. That's just ridiculous. We're all missing you much, Abang (and the rest). 


He wanted me to come to Ireland, too. See? 


Everyone wants me to go there. To pursue my greatest ambition yet. A doctor- a cardiologist, to be specific. It's tough people. I'm simply lack of confidence. My family, the whole members of the family, put their trust and hope upon me and Adnan. Adnan is okay I guess. He doesn't study but he always do well in his exams. But me, I'm another different case. Now this case is closed.


Be nice.

[FC2] Kim Hyun Joong (SS501) - Please Be Nice to Me @ DK Party

[GBYJH] Kim Hyun Joong (SS501) - Please Be Nice to Me

BE NICE

Please Be Nice To Me - Kim Hyun Joong

They've worked so hard and they made it. Some went to Cairo, Egypt, some went to India, some went to Dublin, Ireland. Truthfully, I'm jealous of them. They can at least see their future, since they're in the best universities. 

I still have one year left. One toughest year of Malaysian high school. We are going to sit for our SPM exams next November. SPM scares the hell outta me. SPM is our turning point. After SPM we have not much time to play or hang around with friends. We'll be busy looking for a spot in a university. We'll be painting our own future. We'll go different paths. We'll speak different jargons. We'll learn different things. We'll meet different races.

I have different ambitions. First, I wanna go to Dublin, Ireland. I heard the med-school is the best. So, I wanna be a professional doctor. Pray for me. Second, I wanna be a pharmacist, and I must go study abroad. Pray for me. Third, I just wanna be in UIA or USM. Pray for me. If not, I'll be a writer. Like J.K Rowling and Jane Austen. Pray for me.

But my priority is to become a doctor. I love human anatomy. My Dad wants me to become a doctor. My Mum said she'll be happy if I am. The teachers want each and every one of us to do our best. My grandparents want me to study in Ireland or India.

I have too much great expectations when I only have two shoulders and two brains to carry on.

SPM is months away and I'm so not ready. Will I ever be? Right now I'm such a pessimist that I hate myself to the point of suicidal. I have eleven freakin' subjects to revise in 10 months. Not only that, next year, I'll be burdened with homeworks and drills. 

Never-ending rants, I say.

Just pray for me people. Pray for me to become a great doctor and I'll treat you, your sons and daughters with the best treatment you could get. Okay? Thanks in advance.

I'll be nice. 

Thoughts...

If you love somebody should you feel bad about it? Of course, no, right? Most people would claim so. The rest would've answered 'yes'. Anyway, don't start with me, people. The forthcoming words are purely mine, regardless how weird they're, considering ME.


Back to the main point.


I agree with the first answer; we shouldn't feel bad when we fall for someone. But it's really up to that someone whether they like us back or not. Uh, wait, no, that's totally not right. We're not the ones who control our feelings. We can never tell our heart how to feel. Love is an involuntary act. And it's somewhat depressing, don't you think so? Love is very unpredictable. You have to expect the unexpected. See? Love is a hard matter to discuss. I don't know why I bothered, anyway. Ignore my foolishness.


They say that when we are in love, we don't see things right. We see them just the way they are, no matter right or wrong, everything will seem so perfect. Fairytale-like. But when it comes to breaking ups, we'll start to digest every single thing we'd seen perfectly. Then we'll start blaming. Blame here and there. Blame him, her and them.


We'll keep blaming others and blaming those crappy situations until we finally realize that we are the ones who actually very stupid. Stupid in making the right decisions. Stupid enough for saying yes. Stupid for being too easy. Stupid beyond compare and repair. Love'd blind us, and we'd regret it.


But, what's the use of crying over spoiled milk, right?


While choosing, forget about their looks. Looks can be very deceiving. While loving, be honest. Acknowledge each precious moment. While crying, consider their feelings. Can we do that? No, we can't, if we let our lust conquers all. That's very unfortunate, people.


One who's controlled by lust is just walking this world as a puppet; merely following, never thinking.


So while searching for the right one, choose wisely. :) 

SORRY!

But I can't help it. The song Please, Be Nice To Me is stuck in my head. He got me falling for it way, way, way haaaaaaaard. His dance moves are, well, seductive. xD


And so I posted loads of videos of Please, Be Nice To Me. Sah-rry.

2010.02.13 Kim Hyun Joong-Please Be Nice to Me@SS501 PERSONA in BANGKOK

[MV]HQ- Please Be Nice to Me - Hyun Joong Solo

Kim Hyung Joong - Please be nice to me(MV)HQ

HYUN JOONG--- Please, Be Nice To Me [AMV]

McFly - End Of The World (Live)

WOW

That lunatic's got some nerves. She just kept asking me annoying, personal questions. I feel like killing that Cruela. 


Question one: Who was your first love?


I didn't answer that one. I shut my mouth up. The next question is simply ridiculous. 


Question two: Why do you love Harry Potter so much?


WTH. It's frickin' Harry Potter for crying out loud. The books made more than half of the kids worldwide to love reading. If anyone can do better than J.K Rowling then, gimme a call. I'll beg ya to kill me.


The rest remains history.

I miss them.

Not my friends, no. I've always missed them like hell. 


But regarding the title, I was talking about McFly. It's been a while since I turned on the Music Player and listened to their words. I miss their rhythm. I miss Tom and Danny's voices. I miss Harry's drum sets. I miss Dougie's bass guitars. Gahhh, I miss them so and very, very, fucking much. I feel like exploding. Ugh, another metaphor.


Forgive me, but these days, I'm feeling super down and a bit poetic.


Kim Hyun Joong kinda cheered me up. Thanks, Hyun J. :) Thanks, Luna. For showing more of your fan-girl side.

100 Million Dollar Smile

Kim Hyun Joong. Gawd, he's almost too perfect. He sings, dances, acts and even studies well. Plus, he's a professional model. Apart from those merits, he is quite quirky in person and a bit shy. I love shy guys. They're super duper cute. He influences the people around him, especially girls. He gets the screaming and being idolized just by taking off his jacket half-way. How can someone do that? Well, if anyone around me tries to imitate that, I'll vomit and slap him straight in the face. What he can do with his body movements and his singing voice are just amazing to the point of... well, to the point of chaos. He'll make a place go hectic just by showing up. Right, Hyun? You're cool like that. Oh and, I love his charming personality. And his hair, of course. He is also kind to his fans. He walked past a bunch of crazy fan-girls and took their letters for him. If I wasn't a fan, I would've referred that as 'being narcissistic'. Oh well, when you're in love, you'll think everything is just perfect. Right? I know so. He looks good in everything. Seriously, (just to mention a bit) he looks good in black, white, light pink and even yellow. As much as I distaste yellow, it looks very good on him.I swear it's hard to find someone, err, a guy who wears yellow like a Greek God. Oh-kay, that's an exaggeration. But seriously, he's everything I want for a perfect boyfriend. But not Hyun himself, no. xD I want someone better. But is there? I believe so. *winks* Hyun has a smile that's worth a million dollar. Someone claimed that he hardly smiled before he was a model. He even had to practice smiling on sets. Sheesh. Anyhoo, he's still one of the best. :)

Please, Be Nice To Me - Kim Hyun Joong

mae-il keoldeon cheonhwa pogosip'dan yaegi
haru hansigando na eopsineun mot kyeondyeohadeon neoinde
chigeumeun neomu tareun nega na''seola

keunal pamdo keurae pappeutadeon neonde
taech'ye keu koseseo tareun keuwa haengbokhan neoreul pwayahae
eoseolp'euge tulleodaedeon neon eotteohke

I'm sorry, all right girl?
neomudo pyeonhaega, oh my girl
neoneun naega neomu chal aljanha nal sokijima
'cause I know you're everything

I'm sorry without girl
isseul suga eoptjanha, oh my girl
ne kyeot'e ittneun nae moseubi ch'orahajianhke
chepal chalhaejweo

nunuseumi manhgo aegyo manheun mallt'u
hagin keureogettji manheun namja neol pomyeon ppajyeodeult'ende
chepal naege ireojineunma
na-ege...

I'm sorry, all right girl?
neomudo pyeonhaega, oh my girl
neoneun naega neomu chal aljanha nal sokijima
'cause I know you're everything

I'm sorry without girl
isseul suga eoptjanha, oh my girl
ne kyeot'e ittneun nae moseubi ch'orahajianhke
chepal chalhaejweo

p'aljjangdo keureohgo haengbokhan moseubi
wanbyeokhan yeonin tulmani
eotteohke ihaehae ohiryeo neol
poneun nae moseubeul

neon naega keureondago saenggak chom haebwa
Please, my love
teutgosip'eo neoran saram soknaereul chom

without girl...

I'm sorry, all right girl?
neomudo pyeonhaega, oh my girl
neoneun naega neomu chal aljanha nal sokijima
'cause I know you're everything

I'm sorry without girl
isseul suga eoptjanha, oh my girl
ne kyeot'e ittneun nae moseubi ch'orahajianhke

sorry without girl (without girl)
oh my girl (oh my girl) ...


(english)
I call you everyday
Only wanting to watch you in conversation
Whatever the time of the day
You, the one who finds it unbearable without me
But now so different, youre like a stranger to me

Yes, it was the same that night
Claiming you were busy once again
My place has been replaced by another and I see that you are happy
Carelessly, you cast me aside
How could you ~

Sorry Oh My Girl
Youve changed too much Oh My Girl
You and I both know well
Do not deceive me
Cause I know your everything

Sorry without Girl
Just not to be Oh My Girl
My look when youre by my side
Is not one of despair and misery
Please (i beg!) treat me well

Many smiles
And many sweet whisperings
Im sure many men will fall for all that
Please do not do this to me

Sorry Oh My Girl
Youve changed too much Oh My Girl
You and I both know well
Do not deceive me
Cause I know your everything

Sorry without Girl
Just not to be Oh My Girl
My look when youre by my side
Is not one of despair and misery
Please (i beg!) treat me well

Hand in hand
Looks of happiness
The perfect us
Looking at that look of yours, however, how do I comprehend


I tried to figure out
Please my love
I want to listen to the intentions of the real you

(Without girl)
I'm sorry Oh my girl
Youve changed too much Oh My Girl
You and I both know too well
Do not deceive me
Cause I know youre everything

Sorry without Girl
Just not to be Oh My Girl
My look when youre by my side
Is not one of despair and misery
Im sorry without girl
Oh my girl (oh my girl)

[Kim Hyun Joong] Please, Be Nice To Me

[ENG SUBBED] Kim Hyun Joong - Star Secret Part 3 of 3 (END)

[ENG SUBBED] Kim Hyun Joong - Star Secret Part 2 of 3

[ENG SUBBED] Kim Hyun Joong - Star Secret Part 1 of 3

Merely doing some thinking...

Hello. I'm back. And the connection around here is darn fast. I'm smiling all along because of that and because of that super someone. You know who. Well, at least try to guess, please? I don't wanna give names around here. 


Hmm. I'm still watching Playful Kiss, btw. Hee, I'm laughing hella hard. Like super seriously.


Right now, I'm thinking about some things. This morning, someone asked me why do I have to reject boys when I can get them all? Super great, that person is, for the exaggerated question. I didn't answer her, since I couldn't even think. 


But just now, a thought occurred to me. It kinda just pop-ed into my dreamy mind. 


I think, because of a few reasons, I don't want to be in a committed relationship. When I have to share, care and love someone who I'm quite unsure of, I have to back down. I don't hate boys, but they kinda annoy me at times. The times when they are overly caring but actually they're so not wanting to be so. I have this special thing that I can do, and sometimes I hate it. I can read people's feelings/thoughts just by their expressions and sometimes through their eyes. I don't mean to brag, people. Most of the times, I get confused by that. Most people say what they don't mean to say. And I hate that. I know the truth hurts, and I've been hurt so much lately, so what if some words might slice? Hmm? Boys tend to do that to me, and other girls ah-lot. Like it's their hobby; not telling the truth but pretending everything is super fine by throwing their 'sweet' words. Sweet, my ass. Ignore the dirty language, please.


Goodnight & Goodbye. Saranghae. Adios.

Cuties

I do not own this picture

Twelve Lettered

I DO NOT OWN THESE PICTURES

KHJ

Mine :)

I can't stop gawking, sah-rry.

Seriously, when my little sister watched Playful Kiss ah-gain, I joined. Forgive me, but... I can't stop staring at that guy. Kim Hyun Joong, why you so -? *speechless* There, he's on the screen again. *squeals* Okay, for now, I need to stop typing. I need to focus on him! *why am I so very crazy?*


P/s: I wish Dougie Poynter would do some cameos or something, minus Just My Luck, though. Then, I'd go even more crazy about him. More. Than. Anything. (that's a metaphor xD)

My other half

They say that each person belongs to another, that each of us has a destined soul mate. If it's true, what would my other half be like, eh? Can I just wish?

He should be the one who ignites every sense inside me. The one who'll be the most considerate person, to me, and he'll always have my back. He should be my honorable firefighter, that is, when I run for the emergency exit, he'll be the one who I set my eyes upon. Not only that, he'll be the one who'll put out the fire inside my heart, whenever it feels like exploding. He'll hand me his handkerchief- to wipe my tears. He'll be the light to my times of darkness. He'll be there, no matter what, no matter how unimaginable the situation will be. He'll be my firework. Without this person, I'll feel like a living corpse. When he smiles, I smile. When he cries, I will too. He'll complete me.

Right now, my other half is my Querida. How can I survive high school without her, really? How can I laugh without her sarcastic, sadistic jokes? But I know, one day, she'll become someone else's 'other half'. Someone perfect just for her. A doctor, perhaps? I really hope it's that particular person. 

This is too personal, really. I don't know why I bother to write this here, anyway. I guess I'm feeling a bit impulsive right now.

Just thinking. And writing.

How come?

Ohmygod. Yun Ji Hoo is so adorably charming. God, I want! Please, please, please. :D


I love the 21st episode the most. Yeesh, how come he's so, so, SO cute/adorable/charming? ^^


I want, I want, IWANT!

Kim Hyun Joong :)

CONFESSIONS

See the title there? Uhuh, I'd like to make a, well, some confessions.


For the past two days, I've been staying at my cousins' house. FYI, my fourteen-year-old cousin is a huge fan of Korean dramas. So, I've been forced (by a close friend of ours) to watch Playful Kiss and Boys Over Flowers. Reluctantly, I did so.


Well, here goes my confession number one; I personally think Kim Hyun Joong's so cute. Cute to the max. I started to become a (secret) fan of him upon gawking at his hair (and other parts of him) in Playful Kiss. xD


Number two; I think his songs are... quite meaningful and somehow touching.


Number three; I think he's another one of my celebrity crushes. *wink wink*


P/s: I'm looking forward to post his pictures.


***I hate making THESE confessions, like seriously. But, I couldn't resist.

The lyrics matter to me most ;)

From the songs that I've listened to for the past three weeks...

• End Of The World, McFly
• That's The Truth, McFly
• I've Got You, McFly
• I'll Always Remember You, Miley Cyrus
• The Climb, Miley Cyrus
• Firework, Katy Perry
• Pray, Justin Bieber
• We R Who We R, Ke$ha
• Mine, Taylor Swift
• Just The Way You Are, Bruno Mars
• The Truth, Kris Allen
• Cooler Than Me, Mike Posner
• Not Afraid, Eminem
• Grenade, Bruno Mars
• Careful, Paramore
• Love Like Woe, The Ready Set
• Lies, McFly
• Ego, The Saturdays

Emma Watson

I wanna post write about Orlando Bloom.

His full name is Orlando Jonathan Blanchard Bloom, born 13 January 1977. He is an English actor.


He had his break-through role as the elf-prince Legolas in Lord of the Ring in 2001.

I love this. He looks so angelic :)

Starting in 2003, he played a blacksmith called Will Turner in Pirates of the Caribbean.

Bloom next took to the screen as Paris, the man who effectively started the Trojan War in 2004 blockbuster Troy.

And I've seen him (also) in Elizabethtown.

Of all the parts he played, I love Legolas, Will Turner and Paris the most. And of course, Orlando Bloom himself.

Watching TV (and never stopping)

I am now, to tell the truth, watching Spiderwick Chronicles with my little midgets - my sister, and my brother, of course. I can't recall how many times have I seen this movie but lemme tell ya peeps, Jared and Simon Grace are so, so ah-dorable. Too bad they're actually the same person, not really twins. *sighs* But he/they is/are so, so, SO cute. Well, to me, at the very least least.


Yesterday, I went to buy Harry Potter 7 Part 1 at Choice Super Mall. I had to speak in English with the Chinese salesgirl and she rudely asked me; "You can speak English? Seriously?".


What a show-off. And I simply said, "Well, yeah. Could you puh-lease get me my HP 7, like NOW?". She was lucky I'm in one of my very good moods, or else I would've thrown my best bitchy remarks at her. Then she asked me back 'just what the hell is HP7'. God, talk about a non-fan. Muggles.


Sadly, HP7 P1 was sold out! Turned out that I made up my mind (as fast as I could) to buy HP 6. I couldn't tell whether the DVD she (the salesgirl) sold to me was Blu-Ray or not because I bought it for twelve MR and it was in full HD with special features and stuffs. Got lucky, I suppose.


Well now, look at the title, querida Luna!


Uhuh. This was supposed to be about TV. Oh never mind, I kinda watched my newly-bought HP6 on the TV (with a DVD player, of course) after all. 

SERIOUSLY.

Song: If U C Kate- McFly


Someone should murder me at this exact moment. What have I done? I've messed every single thing up. Things should not have gone this way. Things should have been easy. God, why do I have to make things a lot more worse when it already does? And I don't know why am I listening to this song right now. It just feels right to listen to their music when I'm in a shitty situation. Sometimes, they manage to make me smile, even if smiling seems so hard for me. Can I just say that I totally, irrevocably hate myself? Yes, that much hatred to myself. My Q had given me some advices. I followed; I should stick to the truth and tell him. Hmm, speaking of, what would Azman Hushairi say? He was, after all, my personal counselor. Back then, I would've not survived without him. But now, I have my Q. And of course, the ones who had been there for me through every shit since the past 16 years, my beloved family. Especially Mom. Mom. Mom. And Daddy.


Seriously, I love them all. And I'm seriously sorry, because I keep messing things up. Family & Friends, just don't give up on me. 

The hell I was thinking?

I kept counting the days 'til the school actually starts. How awkward and extremely bizarre. I shouldn't be doing so, because I should stay focused on revising ELEVEN SUBJECTS before January. Well, at least most of them. So I shouldn't add some more pressure onto myself. Gawd, I'm ah-noying.

Can't Even Close My Fucking EYELIDS!!!

I want to...

I really wanna join the Citizens/Pioneers of Super City, but if I have to pay to be part of Super City, maybe later. So sad, so sad. And I call myself a die-hard fan? Ugh. But I just love clicking this; http://supercity.mcfly.com . It makes me jump like a dork, and of course, makes my day.

McFly Super City

Super Band

Dougie Lee Poynter

I'll Be Your Man; McFly

Been all around the world
I've never met a girl
That does the things you do
And puts me in the mood
To love you, and treat you right
So come here, and close your eyes
Lie back, release your mind
And let the world fall down while I'm by your side

I'll be your man through the fire
I'll hold your hand through the flames
I'll be the one you desire
Honey, 'cause I want you to understand..
I'll be your man
I'll be your man

I can make it through the days
The years can pass away
There's lipstick on my face
And I love the way you taste
And I'm right here, so lock the door
Because you make me
Burn, and make love
And you don't care, 'bout your mistakes
'Cause they all went away when I found you Katie

I'll be your man through the fire
I'll hold your hand through the flames
I'll be the one you desire
Honey, 'cause I want you to understand..
I'll be your man
I'll be your man

[Guitar solo]

Oh, I'll be your man through the fire
Honey!
I'll hold your hand through the flames
I'll be the one you desire
Honey!
Because I want you to understand..
I'll be your man
Oh, I'll be your man
Woh, yeah
Honey!
I'll be your man



From the album; Above The Noise (2010)